The fog is still with me and now I was fast approaching ‘The Firsts’. The first Halloween (Anton loved handing out the treats), the first Bonfire Night, the first birthday without him, the first remembrance parade and the six month anniversary of losing him. As Anton was in the Navy I was used to him… Read More Bereavement Months 6 – 9
Fog, fog and fog. Yes I still live in the fog. Three months in and it’s still intense, it’s still unbelievable, but there has been a fundamental change. In the early months there was lots to do, lots to arrange and friends and family were around. Now it’s a lot quieter, people return to their… Read More Bereavement Months 3 – 6
Fog, fog and more fog. During the first week I was medicated, at my request, as I remember wailing ‘I won’t survive this’ over and over again. I have no idea what medication I was on (but it was good stuff) and it enabled me to function and go through the motions. I existed. The… Read More Bereavement Months 1 – 3
My son was in the Navy and it was to be a military funeral. As his mother I could chose the hymns and the prayers. The Navy would provide the formal proceedings of the gun salute, the flag and the last post. I spent the three weeks working on it night and day, it gave… Read More Bereavement – The Funeral
My priority was my other four sons and breaking the news to them. Seeing and hearing their reactions broke my already shattered heart. Apart from hearing the news and telling my other sons I have very little recollection of the day.
As I approached our house I saw the Police car, I parked and took a deep breath. My son was in the Navy why would the police be here, surely if it was him the Navy would be there. Yes the Police must of made a mistake. I went inside… The Police hadn’t made a… Read More Bereavement – The Police
When I received the call I was at work, it was a Friday morning. My partner made the call, he didn’t want to tell me, he just told me to come home, pleaded with me to come home. Now when someone tells you to come home, it’s not rocket science to guess something is seriously… Read More Bereavement – The Phone Call
I have experienced bereavement in my life but nothing, but nothing prepared me for dealing with the loss of my son Anton, aged 28 in an car accident. After 8 months I decided to write about my journey in my Blog through this unfamiliar and dark place. I will continue to write for as long… Read More Child Bereavement