I made the decision very early on in my grief not to EVER acknowledge the anniversary day, in fact I would be making a conscious effort not to even think of what happened that day, No letting off balloons, No remembrance and No tears. The sole reason for this was because my son died on one of my other sons birthday! So you can stuff all that grief because that day will be a celebration of my sons birthday, the first year and every year after that.

Grief has its own timeline, grief eats right into your core, grief is raw, grief comes in waves, you have no control over it. But for this day I would take control I would put my grief into a box and I would do whatever it took to make my boys birthday the best, and that is what I told everyone else….